KATE MONSTER
Your problems aren't so bad!
I'm kinda pretty
And pretty damn smart.
BRIAN
You are.
KATE MONSTER
Thanks!
I like romantic things
Like music and art.
And as you know
I have a gigantic heart
So why don't I have
A boyfriend?
Fuck!
It sucks to be me!
I see happiness all around me, but it stops at my skin. I can't let it inside. I feel it in little moments with Jamie because he loves me so hard. He loves me as hard as the people who treated me like shit.
(paraphrased)
2009-05-28
what will become of me? oblivion?
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Fine, I have low self-esteem. I denied it on the basis of my vanity--not relevant. My approach to love at this point in my life is that I have two choices: choose to hook up with people you don't want to hook up with--or choose chastity. I chose the former for 2 years. I've been choosing the latter for 6 months. I thought I was so much happier, and maybe I'm unhappy for other reasons (ie, genetics direct or indirect, stress, academics).
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Fine, I have low self-esteem. I denied it on the basis of my vanity--not relevant. My approach to love at this point in my life is that I have two choices: choose to hook up with people you don't want to hook up with--or choose chastity. I chose the former for 2 years. I've been choosing the latter for 6 months. I thought I was so much happier, and maybe I'm unhappy for other reasons (ie, genetics direct or indirect, stress, academics).
2009-05-14
I just wanted to go to KDR, but I think everyone was convinced I was gonna [-pull a] Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon [-on] Otter Creek.
So they tricked me into going to bed with the line, "just lay down in your bed first and then you can go to KDR." I cleverly escaped [+through the basement] at one point but like all of PALANA tackled me and carried me back.
I end up in bed with Sharris, but I start reading a book while she snores because I took two caffeine pills in an attempt to thwart their plot of putting me to bed. I thought about climbing out the window, but Cat had made me promise not to leave.... Read More
It was kinda funny, but also sobering. The point is, I'm sorry to have been so troublesome, and I'm thankful that so many people care, worry, and want to protect me. Being put to bed made me feel like Blanch DuBois, but in retrospect, going to KDR at 3am was a terrible idea.
"You said, 'it's so meaningful that you're here with me now,' to me"
-Sarah Harris
"When I woke up, I was in your bed. And I was big spoon, and you were little spoon."
-Sarah Harris
Really funny episode actually.
"At one point you escaped through the basement."
-Sarah Harris
Yeah, and Cat tackled me and they carried me by my four limbs back into the house.
The next morning, no one mentioned it to me, except to ask how I was. I was totally expecting everyone to be like, wow Matt you were mad bellig yesterday.
Apparently I told Sarah I was gonna jump in the river and that I had suicidal thoughts. I kinda remember telling them that I wasn't gonna, but maybe I didn't.
So they tricked me into going to bed with the line, "just lay down in your bed first and then you can go to KDR." I cleverly escaped [+through the basement] at one point but like all of PALANA tackled me and carried me back.
I end up in bed with Sharris, but I start reading a book while she snores because I took two caffeine pills in an attempt to thwart their plot of putting me to bed. I thought about climbing out the window, but Cat had made me promise not to leave.... Read More
It was kinda funny, but also sobering. The point is, I'm sorry to have been so troublesome, and I'm thankful that so many people care, worry, and want to protect me. Being put to bed made me feel like Blanch DuBois, but in retrospect, going to KDR at 3am was a terrible idea.
"You said, 'it's so meaningful that you're here with me now,' to me"
-Sarah Harris
"When I woke up, I was in your bed. And I was big spoon, and you were little spoon."
-Sarah Harris
Really funny episode actually.
"At one point you escaped through the basement."
-Sarah Harris
Yeah, and Cat tackled me and they carried me by my four limbs back into the house.
The next morning, no one mentioned it to me, except to ask how I was. I was totally expecting everyone to be like, wow Matt you were mad bellig yesterday.
Apparently I told Sarah I was gonna jump in the river and that I had suicidal thoughts. I kinda remember telling them that I wasn't gonna, but maybe I didn't.
Matt Sunderland is thankful and sorry. Whoever you are, I have always depended on the kindness of strangers.