Wow, types of non-NT condition seem to be associated with an inverted drug reaction:

ADHD: Stimulants calm them down
Schizotypy: Sedatives arouse them from catatonia
Borderline Personality: Tobacco
Schizoid Personality: Marijuana

My secondary symptoms:

1. Depression, characterized by regret, not sadness; feeling sorry, not feeling sorry for myself; feeling thankful for everyone's magnanimity, not resentful for everyone's cruelty; masochistic, but not suicidal; major problems with concept of self
   
2. Anxiety
3. Disassociation, both derealization (like nothing is real) and depersonalization (like I'm watching myself do things in a dream), very weird, but for short durations in the past (perhaps last Fall?)--has something to do with
   
4. a little borderline personality features, like "hunger" or "a pressing urge almost to merge with the other person"--I know exactly what this means, it's like a dull ache inside (yet pressingly urgent) to do precisely that, merge with another person
5. substance abuse, alcohol and especially caffeine, the alcohol seems to remove the inhibition on hyperactivity, and the caffeine makes it easier to sit still
   
6. sleep deprivation psychosis, the walls and the grass breathe all the time when I get less than 7.5 hours of sleep more than 3 days in a row; yes, even 6.5 hours of sleep 3 days in a row is enough for sleep deprivation psychosis to manifest; however, when i take ADHD medication, I seem to respond to slight sleep deprivation (6.5 hours of sleep continuously) like normal people, sleep but not full-blown hyperactive, not irrationally sad with no warning during the day, not feeling literally like death, and not psychotic
   

My current internal dialog mostly consists of "no, you're not worthless; please stop."