just watched zoolander, and the character strongly reminds me of Alex Bores. even his interesting "l" accent--i cant figure out why, since Alex doesnt have this.

i know zoolander is Alex's 2nd favorite movie (it and his 1st both have Duchovny, also my favorite actor, for reasons i cannot fathom as he isnt that good--maybe its the jaw, and nastalgia of a 9th grade crush)

the movie was dear to me, even though i didnt like parts of the middle that slowed down, and the trance was broken.

maybe it was that particular quality that zoolander had,
something that youd think would be described as adorable or cute,
but those words arent even in the right direction.
his attraction is ineffable then.

i had a much stronger deep-level reaction to My Own Private Idaho, even though i didnt like the movie itself much--the acting was bad, the plot was annoying in some ways; but there was something, perhaps river phoenix, something only amplified by his death in real life.