But more importantly, I have no will when it comes to work. That is why I'm failing all my classes.

I could never understand people who get bored (pretty much everyone). With me, I'm never board; there's always something to occupy me. This starts working against me, as I can always find something better to do than my work.

I'm always late to class, and I never do my Vergil. But I've been late to everything since the beginning. So have I never been able to do my work, spending countless hours wallowing in self pity or googling suicide and random stuff like the death penalty.

How can I change? I want to change, but I don't know how. Everyone is there to help me, but I will not see them. Instead I stand alone, proud, but already fallen. How can I profess to follow the Way, when I cannot even see tomorrow?